Recently my daughter Caoimhe, 2 of my cousins and I undertook the Inflatable 5k run at Strathclyde Park. This was my first competitive event since having my Son and it was also Caoimhe’s first ever event.
Due to ill health following the birth of Cillian and stress / anxiety issues relating to some matters within my business which sadly came at the same time as Cillian was born, I have put on quite a bit of weight. In fact, I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life.
I don’t recognise myself when I look in the mirror and my mental health has been suffering as a result.
It can be a vicious circle and some days I just don’t want to leave the house. Having always been active and competed in many events previously, hence my career choice, this has been alien to me, feeling tired, lacking motivation to exercise, sad for no reason and being “fat” my head has been way way down at times.
The gang have kept me going, thankfully I have still enjoyed my walks with them. There’s nothing better in the world than spending time in nature with some dogs is there?
So with this in mind, it was fair to say I was pretty nervous when race day came. I was putting on a brave face for Caoimhe as I wanted her to enjoy the experience and have fun.
We started off and within the first kilometer my leg muscles were tight and sore and I was terrified I would have to give up, then I realised that it was my own silly fault as I had worn the wrong shoes. So I stretched out, felt better and got stuck in!
It was soooooo much fun, flying through inflatables, bouncing like a kid again and falling on my butt, many times!
Caoimhe absolutely smashed the course and loved every second, she was like a wee ninja and had the best time.
Crossing the finishing line with my baby girl and my cousins was a fab feeling. I was so super proud of my girl and proud of myself too.
With Mental Health Awareness week, it’s important to highlight that it’s ok to not be ok and talking definitely does help.
All too often we feel ashamed and afraid to speak out, this is something we need to eliminate from our society. Especially for young men. Many suffer in silence and don’t seek the help they need. Please be mindful that your actions and words can impact someone and their mental wellbeing, so if you can be anything, be kind and lead with love.
Dogs are amazing friends during the down times, well all the time actually but they just seem to know, which is why I love my job even more. I’d be lost without my furry gang to cuddle.
Exercise is also an amazing comfort, it gives us space to clear our heads, think and see things from a new perspective. It’s also good for us! (Well so they say, the state of us trying to watch Eurovision after the 5k was a sight to behold but we did feel amazing!)
Getting out in nature to breath in the smells and take in the sights. In Scotland we are so very blessed with all the beauty we have on our doorstep and with our ever changing weather, every day is different!
I’m most definitely on track to finding me again and I can look in the mirror and be proud. My body has brought 2 perfect amazing human beings into this world, that alone is a fab achievement and for that I love my wonky body.
I will continue to work on myself and get back in shape but with a renewed attitude and a commitment to be kinder to myself.
I am so very lucky that I have a wonderful husband, 2 fab children, a small but supportive group of friends and family and I’m surrounded by lots of amazing furbabies.
If you are struggling, please reach out, I can always pop the kettle on and have a cuppa and some kinds words.
The more we talk the better life will be.
See you on the next blog!